4 Songs

Its been awhile that I had songs that I felt related to my life.... cause to be honest... My life too less drama and no love life to relate to love songs (kinda)

7 Years - Lukas Graham

"Once I was seven years old my momma told me

 Go make yourself some friends or you'll be lonely

 Once I was seven years old"

"Once I was eleven years old my daddy told me

 Go get yourself a wife or you'll be lonely

 Once I was eleven years old"

"Once I was 20 years old, my story got told

 Before the morning sun, when life was lonely

 Once I was 20 years old"

"Soon we'll be 30 years old, our songs have been sold

 We've traveled around the world and we're still roaming

 Soon we'll be 30 years old"

"Soon I'll be 60 years old, will I think the world is cold

 Or will I have a lot of children who can warm me

 Soon I'll be 60 years old"

First up, is a song reflecting life from Lukas Graham. Sure my dad didn't ask me to get a wife when I was eleven. But for now, its definitely once I was 20 years old and soon (not that soon though) I'll be 30 years old and then 60 years old. So when I think back life had been going quite fast at some times although what is in hold for me in the future I do not know, but I know it would be better.

Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots

"Wish we could turn back time to the good old days 

 When our momma sang us to sleep but now we’re stressed out"

Its what we wanted when we were young.... to grow up and do things grown up would do. Somehow we didn't realise how much responsibility that is needed to be an adult and forgotten that those times are the easiest when we don't have to worry about anything. After graduation, or even during uni times.... we can't live that life anymore and were wishing so bad that we could go back but now its just stress to get things done the social way.

"Used to play pretend, give each other different names, we would build a rocket ship and  then we’d fly it far away 

 Used to dream of outer space, but now they’re laughing at our face singing “wake up, you  need to make money”"

Each and everyone of us had dreams... to become this, to become that. Sooner or later we realised that not all can be achieved, some achieved half, some achieved part of it while others changed their dreams to accept reality due to many restrictions. Most importantly, when you graduate it really is a wake up call for you that you need to make money in order to survive.

Zero - Chris Brown

"Ask how many nights I've been thinking of you, zero, zero 

 (Zero, zero, zero, zero, zero, zero, zero, zero, zero, zero, zero) 

 That's how many fucks I give"

Ok after all that life talk, time to talk about something different. This past few months (to be exact a couple of months before February) made me super disappointed, damn emo and thinking a lot till I cant sleep. Those never gonna happen relationship stuff bla bla bla. By February its time to get used to it and change the way of thinking that Its time to be selfish. So now Im trying to give less fucks... otherwise it hurts.

Me, Myself and I - Bebe Rexha & G-Eazy

"Oh, it's just me, myself and I

 Solo ride until I die

 Cause I, got me for life

 (Got me for life, yeah)

 Oh I don't need a hand to hold

 Even when the night is cold

 I got that fire in my soul

 I don't need anything to get me through the night

 Except the beat that's in my heart

 And it's keeping me alive"

So... with that being said, I need to be stuck alone for don't know how long. I missed the times when I enjoy being alone not needing anyone to accompany, and don't give a fuck of people going out with friends always having fun.... That shit might not happen to me many times but I need to be enjoying myself some alone time, go somewhere. Sometimes I kinda missed Initial D, the arcade life where Im doing things alone and enjoying it. Now everything I do I hope someone approves of it and I feel hollow when nobody see's it. But nonetheless, I can get through the night without anything and will get through it without feeling any bad pessimistic stuff... soon.

Signing off with that... and Its officially 1 month and 10 days left to New Zealand